Life is not an RPG

Today, I had an epiphany. To preface, I will say that this is extremely embarrassing on my part and a little shameful.

Life is not like a role playing game (RPG). More specifically, a Christian's life. Yes, this was my lightning-strike-to-the-head-like realization. I caught myself thinking that if I didn't commit particular sins for such-and-such number of days, then my grace meter would recharge. Well, forgiveness and grace are not some meter that recharges after you've committed a sin. They are ever-present, but you have to receive them, accept them, and realize the wrong you've done, asking anew and thanking God for forgiveness. I hadn't been doing anything like that. I merely thought that if I waited long enough, the meter would recharge and I'd be okay in God's eyes again. Whew, what was I thinking? Whoops, sinned again, now I have to wait an indeterminate amount of days before I'm all kosher again, right? Nope, that's wrong. Well, there. For your thinking pleasure.